Im having a breakdown.  Its finally here.  I knew it was coming. 

All I have to say is that I love my bestest friends... Elizabeth, Sandra, Lyana, Ashley and Cathleen.  Theres no one else.  I love those five girls.  I can tell them anything I want to tell them and they will listen and not judge me.  Even Ashley.  We may not talk as much as we used to, but I still love her and when I do talk to her, its like no time has passed and we just pick up from where we left.  I can tell them when Im pissed off, they can tell when Im sad on the phone.  I love them. 

Currently Listening Umbrella By Rihanna (Ft Jay-Z) see related

My parents will be the end of me.  All they can do is bitch about me and then tell me how much they love me.  I think thats pretty fucked up.  They may be my parents, but they cant expect for me to always take their shit and deal with it.  Im not like that.

Boy, I am attracted to you.

I look at my hands and see way too many creases, bends, cracks in my hand.  They look like a piece of dried land.  What have I accomplished in life for me to have hands like the ones i have.  What have I done?  Ive moved from one country to the other and Ive learned new languages.  Ive dealt with being bullied.  Ive been made fun of and I've probably made fun of people.  Ive dealt with a whole lot more than you have.  Or I feel like I have.  Either you can hide your pain and/or experiences very well, or then youre just lucky.  Well, youre not really lucky because you are not strong like I am.  Ive dealt with harder blows that you can imagine.  It doesnt depend on what a person says, but who says it, and what state they are in when they say it.  Life has thrown a lot at me.  Not a crazy amount of things, but Ive had my share of problems and pain. 

          You are happy in your skin. 

                     I want that.    

Currently Listening Back to Black By Amy Winehouse see related